What's life all about...

 I prayed to Him to give me a reason. I ask Him for a purpose.
Then, my prayer was answered. 
I met this person and reality struck me!
This person is not recognized. Neither a label nor considered as someone who is successful in life..
Funny how we learn from people with a completely different background.
I appreciate him so much for being him.

He is the most "TRUE" person in the world. He doesn't have much but he so giving.
I cannot fathom this, really. How can you give without having practically anything left for yourself?..
I was in awe how he lives his life for his family. I am inspired by what he considers important in his life.
It's not that I didn't get to think of these things before but a lot of people now a days are just so superficial. They live their lives like they have all the time and money in the world and worse, being selfish about it.
They brag, show off and pretend.
They go to expensive parties, show off their nice clothes, nice cars, countries they've been. Then, they post everything in facebook or somewhere for everybody to see. They post everything from designer bags to the meals they cook everyday. But I wonder if they are truly happy by the things they consider important.
Well, bad news for them but it's not what life is about...

Life is about sharing and being humbled by it.
It's about the happiness that we share together that doesn't have so much to do with money.
Life is about stretching a hand to someone in need and eventually making you much happier than the person you helped.
It's about getting by the day and even if it's a hard life, its knowing everything will be all right.
It's about knowing that reality and the truth is all we have. We don't need to be pretentious.
I think if we are in this truth, we won't regret any decision we would be making.
And this makes life worth living for..
Now, I have the reason...

My sunshine...

After a while, I forgot about you
After I while I thought everythings going to be real,
All the while, I was overlooking something I really want..
Having something I want doesn't mean that I have to have it,
Having somehting I want doesn't mean I have to own it.
Seeing you again is really different,
I can't even explain..
I wonder if I would ever feel the same way if I meet you again,
I even wonder if I will ever meet you again.

the only time is when...

The only time is when I dream.
You had the same expression with the same evasiveness,
vagueness and lonliness.
With a stare wanting to say a thousand words...
Emotions were building in..
I wonder if you mean it in real life.
I wonder if you want me to...

If..

Whatever comes, I will be ready
Whatever comes, I will be happy.....because I am anyway...
Whatever comes, I will be thankful...
Whatever comes, I know I will have God beside me...
Whatever comes, I know I did my best....

A Red-Letter Day

The road was never ending until....
I chose to walk on it rather than stepping out of it
I admit I as at a lost, too
There were episodes of breaking down
Efforts lay to waste
I had shabby illusions with that made improvident dreams
Nearly losing everything because of bitterness
And happiness was just a temporary high
For long I was alone
Though courageous enough even when darkness was most eminent
Until NOW...


Now, routes are changed
Paths are distinguished
I refuse to look back , but even so, surprisingly, I had no emotion
Dreams are taking shape rather than being obscured
A heartfelt smile, a serene heart
I know the future illuminates and life is better
I want to tell the world...Yes there is...
There is a greater love , a higher purpose...
Life starts NOW!

What is LIFE?

To have the reason to live is to understand life. To comprehend life is to further reason out the purpose of your existence. So I ask what is life?.

To understand life is like to understand death., for there is no absolute answer.

Understanding LIFE like LOVE is illogical. To understand life, you must love it first hand or you might not need to understand it at all. I have realized that to find a reason is difficult, but not trying to reason life is easier. If you love yourself, life and God, then you'll see that life indeed is beautiful. Furthermore, we live to find the reason to live.

There are things in this world that doesn't need an answer. Like Jesus himself who suffered and was crucified on the cross to save all humanity then and now.

As John Nash would have put it in his noble prize speech, " It is only in the mysterious context of love that any logic or reason can be found".

My Quarter-life Crisis

What’s next?I am not anxious about what’s next. I even don’t expect it to be big and extraordinary. BUT, it is clear to me that I deserve more than this. “This” which is obvious. “This” which is dim and somehow meaningless (at this point). I keep the pace and I’m taking my time.People strive for satisfaction otherwise content but the thing is nobody seems to be contented. When this happens, we question our own happiness.Life can have a lot of flips and a lot of turns. There are a variety of choices and major decisions to make. Often, when decisions are made, somewhere along you find yourself confused or worse, frustrated to whatever you did. And that if the choice you chose was the right one or just another mistake. One big ugly mistake!I wonder if I was or still am on the right track. The good thing: I’m not scared coz I have Him. I hang on to Him for I know that one day if everything falls I am safe or if not saved.Therefore, I want to focus on the “now” instead of the “next”. I will take life one step at a time. I’m starting to learn that it’s not about the beginning and how the ending will be. It’s about what’s in the middle, the journey. It’s about what my choices are right now. Whatever the “next” will be, I will not be afraid. I will not even wait. When someone waits in anticipation, there is a hidden expectation. These expectations are of course big because we are human beings. We get disappointed if it’s nothing more than what we expect it to be.For now, I‘ll laugh at the confusion and smile through the tears. I’ll follow my heart and see where it takes me. It doesn’t matter if its going to hurt or not. I know everything happens for a reason. My struggle for clarity doesn’t matter and doesn’t even count at this moment. For now, I choose to be here, I choose to be me....