My Quarter-life Crisis

What’s next?I am not anxious about what’s next. I even don’t expect it to be big and extraordinary. BUT, it is clear to me that I deserve more than this. “This” which is obvious. “This” which is dim and somehow meaningless (at this point). I keep the pace and I’m taking my time.People strive for satisfaction otherwise content but the thing is nobody seems to be contented. When this happens, we question our own happiness.Life can have a lot of flips and a lot of turns. There are a variety of choices and major decisions to make. Often, when decisions are made, somewhere along you find yourself confused or worse, frustrated to whatever you did. And that if the choice you chose was the right one or just another mistake. One big ugly mistake!I wonder if I was or still am on the right track. The good thing: I’m not scared coz I have Him. I hang on to Him for I know that one day if everything falls I am safe or if not saved.Therefore, I want to focus on the “now” instead of the “next”. I will take life one step at a time. I’m starting to learn that it’s not about the beginning and how the ending will be. It’s about what’s in the middle, the journey. It’s about what my choices are right now. Whatever the “next” will be, I will not be afraid. I will not even wait. When someone waits in anticipation, there is a hidden expectation. These expectations are of course big because we are human beings. We get disappointed if it’s nothing more than what we expect it to be.For now, I‘ll laugh at the confusion and smile through the tears. I’ll follow my heart and see where it takes me. It doesn’t matter if its going to hurt or not. I know everything happens for a reason. My struggle for clarity doesn’t matter and doesn’t even count at this moment. For now, I choose to be here, I choose to be me....